My Daily Mumbles

Yes, I will be a Lola, Mamila, or a Lali very soon. My eldest daughter got pregnant last August. I have to admit, I was incredibly disappointed. I had so many plans for her, dreams of her finishing college and reaching her goals. When I found out, it felt like everything came to a halt. It seemed like the end of everything. I felt like I was drowning, wishing I could just disappear until everything was okay again. Despite going to work and facing each day as if nothing had happened, deep down, I felt like I didn't want to continue living. But then she reached out, apologizing. I forgave her, because after all, she is my daughter. -Enna

It is my off tomorrow. Thank GOD! So after I recorded all my expenses for today. I checked my one and only blog that has not been updated for a very long time already. Well, blame it on my laziness and demotivation. If not for my work recently, I don't remember that this blog exists anymore and somehow I kind of miss it.    Photo not mine So, I tweaked things here and there, but unfortunately, I don't know anything anymore. I don't know how to add things to my blog at all. I guess, I have to make an extra effort to remember how to do things and add some things here. But for now, I am sorry guys but this is just a little update on what's going on around. I might create another blog but with a niche this time, maybe. 

 I just landed a job. This is not the usual job I used to have. I am totally new to this. I got so excited at first because it is new but as the training goes by. I find it very difficult. Our assessment will be next week and that's tomorrow Monday and I don't know if I can pass. I will just lift it to my Fate whatever it is, I will just have to take it but I hope I will pass. 

The new generation seems too aggressive nowadays and they are just thinking about things today, they don't think about their future. They don't even know how to save out of their earnings. I have a 21-year-old daughter and I don't know,  it is already hard to get a hold of her. It is hard to control her and to talk to her about what's good for her. She kept on telling me that she already know what was good for her and whatnot. But it is still hard to determine if she already knows those things when her action is contradicting what she was saying.  I think I have done enough for her. She is already 21 years old and it is tiring to keep on telling her about it and at the end of the day, she doesn't seem to listen. I just hope that somehow she knows what to do because if she will do something that I am afraid of, then I might have to let her go. I mean she's already 21 years old, she should know the consequences. 

 I'd been reading this news from these scientists who are stepping forward to encourage us to help saving Earth because it is rapidly dying that we might only have months to live. They are even appealing to the governments all over the world to help them otherwise it will be too late for us to save it. These tips from National Geographic  could help them a little. I hope you will religiously follow them as I will do my best to cooperate.  1. Take a walk - If the destination you are going to is only a walking distance then why not do it. It can't only save gas or your fare expenses, you can get to exercise as well.  2. Fill it up - Of the billions of bottles of water consumed every year, there were only about 30 percent of those bottles are recycled. So most of it were clogged up landfills or wind up in the ocean and will absolutely harm animals. Thus, instead of buying bottled water each day, it would be best to use a reusable water bottle.  3. Use Eco Bags - Pl...

Covid has been taking a toll on us for two years now and yet some people are still not being very careful. I understand we need to go out, but do you have to bring your babies in the mall or in a crowded area? Look at China now. Shanghai is in lockdown again because of the surge. When can we learn? When can we be extra careful?  Rallies are everywhere. I understand we need to express our support for our candidates, but that does not mean we will not  exercise the social distancing protocol. We still have the COVID virus! For Christ' sake! Our country can't afford to go through a lock down anymore. Our economy is already going downhill. I bet the next president will have to go through needles to make things work when the surge happens again. And of course, there will be protests again, suggestions and complaints and, oh, we are so expert at that.  I hope, even though we are already on level 1, we, still be responsible of our actions. Please make social distancing a habit a...

People are now checking for their candidate, some are already decided and some are not. There are a lot of strategies tahat each candidates are showing. Some are doing the negative campaigning, some are laying off their platform, and some are just quietly doing the best that they can to at least show what they can do for our country. This post is not about what I choose to be one, however I encourage people to vote wisely. And to pray for that candidate who will win the next election to be fair and just. I hope that person will be for the people and not for those oligarchs who are trying to do all shits for money. I hope this person knows how to make our economy grow not only for words. I hope this person will realize what he or she promise for us and the country.

It has been a while since we were planning to buy a laptop for my eldest. She has been asking me to buy one that can hold the applications that she has to download. We have laptops at home but my youngest daughter is using one of them for her online class, the other one is already obsolete, it won't allow her to download heavy software applications and the other one which is a netbook, aside from it only has limited storage and the specs could not hold some applications as well, it is busted the flex won't let the monitor stand so I have to have something for the monitor to lean.  It was last Tuesday that we looked around to check if there was any laptop available that will suit our budget. Unfortunately, there is none. I planned to apply for Home Credit so at least it won't be too painful in the pocket since we can pay for instalments but lo and behold, the interest is too huge! If we will pay it for 9 months, the interest will reach up to P 14, 000.00 and if we get the 12...

Newly purchased things can make you motivated or inspired.  Isn't it? But I hope when newly purchased things are tested and passed through time, our motivation will still be as strong as it was still new.  I bought this new laptop yesterday for my eldest and the moment I opened it. My motivation to write got too ecstatic that I wanted to post here right away. Now I am adamant either to finish this or not yet here I am. I hope this feeling will continue up until the end of the year. You see, I really wanted to write but I just don't have the energy to do it anymore unlike before when we are still earning from the task that was given to us. I terribly miss those days! 

We as a mother and the budget planner in the house. We always make sure that the money we have in our wallets is enough for the expenses we incur for the day such as groceries and bills. So after I paid all my bills online. I packed my bag, checked if the worksheets of my youngest is already in my bag and my wallet too then went out.  I went to the meat section first because that's the most important thing I have to buy for the whole week otherwise we will be starved if I am not careful. When I am done in the meat section, went on to cereal milk, condiments then I was contemplating if I have to buy a sandwich spread. We still have Eden at home but I know my youngest doesn't like the cheese I bought her a few weeks ago that's why it's still in the fridge.  I was checking for Skippy peanut butter and Goya. Sigh! Both prices increased, then I decided to take the Skippy peanut butter. I have a total of about P2,600 when I checked my calculator. The cashier told the customer...

 I am so dumb! I assume this house years ago and since I don't have work at that time I assumed the house, I and the previous owner of the house,  made an agreement that I will be paying him directly with Deed of Sale and Special Power Attorney, it was legal however Pag Ibig won't honor the papers for me to change the name. I have to process their papers for me to get approval and such.  So just recently I decided to get through the papers they need me to comply with. Everything went on smoothly except the last part. The Gain Tax and Documentary Stamp.  I paid for the Declaration of Tax for about almost P 50,000 last December. I was so excited to submit all the papers I have from Pag Ibig in BIR but when they computed my Gain Tax and the Documentary Stamp, it reaches almost P 120,000. I was very surprised!  I asked them why it reaches to that amount, they said it's the zonal value, the property in this subdivision is too high and that affects the zonal value....

 Do you sometimes feel like you are suffocating? Not with someone pressuring you to do something but in general perhaps because of the society, people around you, or the situation that you are in? That even how you plan things yet there are circumstances that you can't just do it because financially, you can't afford it. There are many things you wanna do but it feels like you don't have time at all and it is suffocating. The opportunities are there but it is just hard to reach them. Totally, I feel like I am trapped and I can't get out. I wanted to but there's no way out and I am afraid not for myself but for the people around me.  I am stagnant, I can't move forward and I don't how to do it. I have many ideas but I don't how to make them real and it is suffocating. Maybe the best phrase to say is I am tired, the situation is so tiring. Suffocating and Tiring

There are times that I would question this to myself. Is the world ending? If it is, do we have the chance to hide or would someone help us?  If the world will end in any way. could it be because of asteroids that would hit the earth or could it be because of natural calamity? I wonder, where would I be?  If the world will end, if I would be given the chance to choose where would I be or who would I be with. I prefer to be with my family. I prefer to be at home with my kids. If I know when it will end, I would cook some meals for my kids. Maybe I would encourage them to tell me, how was their day like? or maybe I would ask them to tell me all the things that they wanted to tell me that they were not able to tell me before. Maybe I would crack some jokes so they will laugh while waiting for the world to end.  I know this is kinda weird, don't get me wrong. I am not and will never pray for this. How I wish it will not happen.  But what if?

My period is not normal at all and it started last 2019, It was in the month of June when I noticed my period has a heavy flow. It continues for weeks. On the fourth day of my menstruation, I went to my Obgyne to ask about it. She requested an ultrasound and the result was negative for any cancer. However, since I was still bleeding for like a week already. We decided on a curettage. It's a surgery where they are going to scrape the lining of your uterus since at that time it was thick the reason I had bleeding. I informed my husband about it and we checked for our budget. I had 15k at that time from my savings and I told him to give me the other half since our estimate was about P 30,000.00. My husband agreed to it. Thus, we scheduled the surgery right away. I just spent a day at the hospital then went home the next day. I thought that was about it.   On the contrary, after the lock-down. I had bleeding again, I went to my  OB-GYN for a check-up. She gave me Hemostan and...

I think I will be resigning soon but I am applying for a new company. I actually in my final interview soon, they told me to keep my line open. I am still trying to apply for a home base jobs but I am still not hired. I guess I am not with home base job but I am not stopping. I just hope that I can find one soon.  Why would I resign from my current company? It is because everything is toxic. It is already given that the account itself is already toxic but the people around? I guess that's too much already, I could not take it anymore that whenever I am about to get inside the office. It feels like there's a T-Rex waiting for me inside and that I have to run before it catches me. It is not inspiring me at all not only me but all of us. It is indeed true that most of the times; it is not the job itself would make us give up but the management itself.  I hope I will be hired soon and I hope my health condition would progress. How I wish to stop working but I can't...

Finally, I was able to buy one for me last Saturday so I could monitor my BP at any time. You see, I was absent again with my work last Friday because my BP went up again a night before Friday. I am totally devastated with how high it was! It was 180 over 104. They required me to have my own BP monitor so I can also check my BP at home.  I asked a budget from my husband for it and thankfully he agreed with me. My husband is also worried about my health condition because ever since I went back to work just this month. My Blood Pressure keeps on fluctuating. And it totally surprised me, I won't know as to when it will rise because I don't feel anything at all that would at least notify me of my condition.  I was so excited with my Digital BP monitor because it is easy to use, you just must plug it in the main outlet and the other cord to the digital to check on my BP and my heart rate. The music from it, it is very relaxing that you can sleep if you would listen t...

When I went back to work last June 1st, we were checked first. They checked of our temperature, we were asked if we had cough or flue 7 days ago or so. They also checked our Blood Pressure. I was so surprised with my result; it went to 150 over 100. Yeah, it was too high and I didn't even notice it. So they recommended me to do some laboratory tests, in which I complied after four days. I submitted my results last Tuesday, they checked my BP again and it still high, 154 over 90 in fact.  They prescribed me of a medicine, which I need to take for 60 days. I went back again the next day and the result was doing well. It responds my maintenance. I hope this would do me better. I was thinking to resign or look for a day time job and or a home based job. Let's see in a few weeks. 

Our account caters selling and or upgrading service package. And every time our customers call for their promotions has been expired, I always stuck up and could not rebut. You see, their complaints are always "The bill is so high" and or "Hey, my promotion has been expired, you need to give me one more promotion". I am not sure if they were not told that the promotion is only an introductory rate for the package that they subscribed and that it always expires in one year.  Nevertheless, when the promotion expires and the customer threatened already to cancel and we always refer them to Loyalty Dept., or Cancellation Team. Thus, since they have to save the customer they offer a one-time promotion that sometimes only get to 3 months or so.  And since yesterday, my transfer rate was failing (meaning to say, most of my calls were transferred) I need to make a sale and that is to offer a wireless bundle. But the offer somehow can help them lower ...

It has been two months that I stopped working; I did not join the hotel accommodation when our company offered us to stay at the hotel during the ECQ (Enhance Community Quarantine). I opted to be with my kids at home. I somewhat missing work, I do think of it sometimes and how did it help with my finances.                                                       The other day our boss    messaged us with a list to those who can go back onsite. I was excited but when I learned how many were positive with Corona Virus that day, I stopped and thought twice. Should I go back or not? What if something will happen? What if one employee will be a carrier? What will happen to us, TO ME?  I can't imagine myself being sick nowadays. I don't want to be one of those patients who could not even see their loved ones while being in quarant...

Our City Government had been giving us ration, actually this is our 3rd times to receive foods already. Although we did not pass the amelioration program, even my sister who is seriously affected, I am still thankful that aside of being healthy, we still have enough funds to pay bills and to do grocery shopping, and oh this the ration.  So the first time I received was maybe 3 kilos of rice 3 sardines and some noodles. The 2nd time was 5 kilos of rice and some sardines and this time, I mean, I guess I only bought this one time when my husband was here. A Dory! Yes our ration was a Dory Fish! And you know how expensive this is?  This morning, I am thinking... I don't know how to cook this! LOL! The first time I have this was a disaster when I tried to fry it, the meat was spread all over the frying pan and it was overcooked! On the other hand, let's have faith with my niece, she said she knows it. So let's see!